im insane
this is insane
the work load is piling
and i have not got around to do anything
why?
cause i mind keep wandering..and wondering..
it aint anyone's fault
i guess im jus a little over sensitive
so thats how my mind works..
well i feeling kinda odd these days
cant describe how i really feel
sometimes i tink im too playful
i dun wanna play wit feelings
im not gonna play wit urs...
perhaps in all of our lives we wear masks..
its like a whole masquerade to us
and we live in this world where we can only hide behind this huge mask
because if the world were to see who was behind it
they be so disgusted..
thats how i feel sometimes..
i feel like i have to put on a whole show..
and that if u peel everything that is on me
all u see is a rotten person
someone who did not grow up properly
someone who did not have basic manners
someone who has no sense of direction
someone who is actually lost in her own world and mind..
peel of all the clothes thats wearing me..
im jus...
nothing..
nothing left to show
nothing left to proof
an insecure person..
loads of self reflecting going on
but not much of work getting done
this is bad
this is real bad
if i dun get work done
christmas is not going to be christmas..
-=depression? not really...=-
nitegems