while showering today
i suddenly asked myself
what do you want to be when you grow up
looking down i realise im almost all grown up already
so why is it so hard to answer this simple question
since young till now
my ambition has changed with time and trend
primary six i proudly told my mum that i wanted to be a vet by hook or by crook
but now im running away when i see a small poodle chasing me jus because i wear a fur vest
not very vet material huh?
at secondary school i ambitiously told my mum that
i wanted to be an actress to be exact a television comedian actress
but NOW when im in mcm school and seeing how i look on screen during tv prod i realise that i look too dramatic and i can hardly make the people in my class laugh.
now in poly life i have not told my mum my ambition in fact i have no clue what it is
the future seems awfully bleak as i scrape through my semesters
i thought through many options
one point i felt that being a make up artiste would be the best choice
at some points
i felt that being a video editor in media corp would be fantastic (why dint i take FSV?)
other days
i jus wished i own my own boutique so i can sell clothes and incorporate some style into my shop
sometimes as you grow up
what you want to be becomes more practical
you start to realise that the job you seek
now requires higher salary
better employees benefits
and so on..
we hardly chase our child like dreams anymore
most people are hoping to hit their million even before they reach 30
some even want to drive fast cars and live the high life asap
why are singaporean youths so quickly dropping their dreams for cash
why have they been moulded into becoming these office hungry people
hmm..
so taking a step back and relaxing
i realised that ultimately my dream job would be something
i love and have a passion for
because in the end this is what is gonna push u forward to survive in the industry
eventually money would lose its flavour or working only for money would drain you out
thus, passion and real love for what you do is super essential
i guess i would take things stepp by step and see where my talents lead me
because i never know where the future might bring me
thinking about it makes me excited!
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why is it so hard to find love
love is such a lame ol thing
most people tell me
its not that its hard to find
its just that u r extremely picky
i dun agree..
i tink its just that i look proud or something
so guys are turned off
better go for some class to teach me some flirt tactics
because i seriously tink i need some
bahahahaha..
like miss ang said one bad impression requires 9 good impression to make up for that one bad impression.
perhaps i have been farting too much bad impressions
*sighs*
on another note
my stupid horoscope says this
Cancer: Ahhh..true love comes at last. Be patient and you will get all the affection and action you need from one impressive guy! Leading your friends into spontaneous craziness will bring hot results!this is so lame..
i would be stupid to believe this love-o-scope
hmm
so in the first place why am i readin this BAHAHAHA u caught me..
im crossing my stupid fingers! *crossed*
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nitegems