i dunno why im still awake at this time..
perhaps its a good time to reflect..
hmm..
i dunno wads wrong wit me..
i wish i knew..
so it wouldn't be so difficult..
darn..
i dun wanna be disappointed..
anyway..
i realise that im pathetic..
seriously.
pathetic.
really..
there are a million reasons why..
and i jus dunno how to start..
sometimes i tink if i look at myself walk on the street
and i see the person behind those clothes
i would think that im pathetic
seriously
sorry..
not gaining empathy
but seriously
i jus feel lousy bout myself..
and there's a million reasons why...
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its not that way would it be?
no..it wun be..cause there is nothing there..
me and my stupid hopes..
stupid i say..
i dun even wanna tink about it no more..
cause when i do..
the pain rushes back..
i realise that..its not wad i tink...
i realise something new all together..
perhaps one day when i have the courage
i would actually..
tell u..
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dreaming....
of me
shopping
happily
nothing else
-=all i need is this..=-
nitegems